Happy Thanksgiving I'm Missing You

I stayed up until 3:30 a.m. keeping busy. Cleaning, prepping and entering a few sweepstakes. Hoping that I could and would just fall into a deep, dark sleep for at least a few hours so I could forget. But NO, 5:30 a.m and Lissa's lock box breaks open and the flood of tears began. We should be having coffee right now. Sneaking off to Kmart. It was our special one on one time. Just you and I, Dad. Just like Black Friday was my time with Little Sissy, aka Baby Brat. Those days are no more.Everyday is a struggle to find a new kind of normal. A twist on an old tradition. This year it is ham and some kind of roast that mom is making that I think is suppose to be like prime rib. We'll see how that turns out. Of course the homemade mac-n-cheese is still in. Some things will never change. Bro and his family will be out of town. So that bums me out. However we will do our best to play some games and stay competitive just like you would want us to.
Hey, we are survivors. We are winners.
I just want to know...Why, oh why did you both have to go?
Two of God's most precious gifts in my life? When will the pain of your absence subside? if ever?
I will be forever grateful for all of the love that you gave me and carry and it with me forever.
However there will also be a 2 holes in my heart,
just like the 2 empty place settings at the table reserved just for you both.
All my love,
Big Sissy

Wishcasting Wednesday November 4, 2009

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This week Jamie wants to know: What Do You Wish To Experience?

A continuation of Wake-up calls (aka thumps on the head) that will help
me on this journey of self discovery. I ask that God, the Universe and the Angels to keep sending me the signs , as well as the courage,compassion and wisdom to know what to do with them. I pray to experience strength, healing, JOY and YES! a Miracle or two. It is also my hope that I can continue to be and meet those that are a "friend to man"

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On a lighter note, I wish to experience unlimited internet access on a computer that is not borrowed nor ancient!! lol
Now on to you....What do you wish to experience?

Wishcasting Weds. October 14, 2009

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Jamie wants to know:
What do you wish to let go?

The baggage and burden of FEAR that keeps me from my true journey in life.

Fear of failure
Fear of success
Fear that I look way too fat in this dress
Fear that I won't remember
Fear that I will forget
Fear that my life will be full of regret
Fear that I am too smart
Fear that I am too dumb
Fear that I will spend my life being
"uncomfortably numb"
Fear is in my heart
Fear is in my head
Fear is what keeps me from getting out of bed
Fear and I have been
playing pretend
Best friends
For far too long
It is wrong
Time for it to
END

Wishcasting Wednesday October 7, 2009

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Jamie Ridler asks:

What do you wish to complete?

Cleaning out the clutter. Both the mental and the actual. There is too much junk in my house(s)
Sadly not enough in the trunk. However, if I get my butt working I might be able to fit into THOSE jeans. You know, the ones that make me feel like JLo has got nothin' on me.

Doesn't everyone have a pair of their own?

Before I go turn on some BTO and start "Taking Care Of Business"

What's on your list?

Wishcasting Wednesday September 30,2009

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This weeks question is:

What Do You Wish To Share?

Well I guess I am going to share the truth as to why I haven't blogged all summer.

Let's start out with limited internet access. T-rexie is not what she used to be and when she is working sometimes I still could not get a connection, which still to this day is sooooo frustrating. I have been promised a a wired connection by Christmas. I may crawl or possibly fall through the attic myself if necessary to get this accomplished. There were times I did get on the computer. Usually late at night or in the wee hours of the morning. I admit it. I was on facebook. It just so happens that after numerous invites I finally sucked it up and signed on. My high school reunion was this year and afterward everyone else was chatting so I figured why not? I'm stuck in the middle of foreclosure city and I am bored silly. One can only read so many books. Which I did. About 30, at last count. And then there is the big TRUTH. I got a pair of double D's. Now don't excited. I am not talking about my breasts. Even though I wouldn't mind a new bra and a pair of those inserts that look kind of like rubber chicken cutlets to enhance what I once had and lost. No, I am talking about Double Depression. The economy had me down and so did the grips of grief. I am missing my sister and dad like crazy. Currently I am trying to get myself back on track in all aspects of my life, including blogging. I have decided to take baby steps and to just be in the moment. Whatever that might BE. I have missed my soul tribe and hope that you can understand.

Wishcasting Wednesdays & Etc.. 7/9/09

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It's the official launch of Jamie's new site and I am so excited for her. Whenever I need insight or a creative boost, I know where to go. Do you desire to be inspired?
Be sure to stop by her web page, you won't be disappointed.

I also wanted to update you all on my blog status. At the present time I have limited internet and computer access. So please know that I have not forgotten you. It is my hope that
in the near future I will be back to blogging on a regular basis. I do however manage to check my email every few days. So if something is going on in your life and you need prayers, healing vibes, just need to vent or chat please send me a letter. Because guess what? I do care.
My wish for you all is to be happy and healthy.
Peace, Love & Light
*Lissa*

Wishcasting Wednesday June 10,2009

Beckham would be GREAT for my body! lol
BTW, I snapped this photo of his UK Sexiness when he was at my house.
Begging me to leave my husband for HIM. Or maybe I just got the pic from google images.

JAMIE @ Wishcasting
Today's Question:
What Do You Wish For Your Body?

There is nothing I wish for my body. It is perfect. My scale however, is in need of repair . When I step on it in the morning (in my birthday suit), the number is WRONG. It is showing my fully dressed afternoon weight plus about 4lbs. The batteries are working properly.So what is going on?I am going to have to solve this problem and soon. The question is should I lie on that big ball and do some ab crunches or continue to eat a few bags of sunflower seeds and towers of crackers made with cheese,salami and pickles every night while trying to figure this out? Another problem I have is with the mirrors in my house. I know what I look like. Hot! Sexy!Beautiful! Young!Healthy! Vivacious! So who is that woman being reflected back at me? There are no lines on MY face. MY breasts do not look like shriveled up tangerines swinging in a pair of pantyhose. MY teeth are the whitest of white. You could bounce a quarter off of MY abs So please send help ASAP-that muffin top is scaring the heck out of me.That is what I wish for. Or maybe just some motivation. Or maybe a dictionary, evidently there is a word called denial......

What do you wish for your bodies my friends?
Babe of Beckham wants to know:)